Tuesday, July 28, 2009 Y
Back..stupid blogger still haven't ok..dunno why always show wad error on page..iszit cause my
internet explorer version is the new one?Dun care liao..
Lessons r boring..super tired for the whole day & felt like slping..Morning when we outside class,
yong jie came & chatted..at first he sit wif the boys mah but then he moved sit between mi & Lois
(Got space in between of cos)..Evon say he flirt..LOL~
Why is life so difficult & hard?
I tried mi best to become a happy person but to no avail..
I tried to hide mi emotions..trying to ignore everything..
I looked okay to u guys but u will nvr noe how i realli
feel inside..
Friends,True Friendship..its a lie..everything its a lie..mayb u dunno
but ur actions can say alot..hab u heard before tat actions speaks louder
than words?
U can act or pretend on the outside but actions & expressions gives away
it all..u r telling mi u dun treat mi realli as a fren..wad u say to others
abt mi behind mi back,u may think i dunno but walls hab ears..I realli dun
trust u guys anymore..NOT EVEN ONE OF U!! I realised how fake the world can be..
the lies tat u make..REALLI..u may tink i'm sensitive & yes i agree..i admit i'm
sensitive & sometimes too sensitive but ur actions is the one who makes mi tink
who am i to u? wad am i to u? Am i someone tat when u feelin gd u treat well? When u
feeling bad ur gib attitude?I tried mi best to believe u r my true friends but
everytime i want to trust in u..u do something tat makes mi think otherwise..mayb we
r not meant for being frens..mayb if we nvr met,it's better?U say i tink too much or
wadeva..but ur action clearly tells mi tat u dun treat mi as a fren,ur action tells mi all
those..u can tink up excuses & as i realli wanna treat u as fren so i dun mind ur excuses
u make to hide those things from mi but realli i noe it all..i'm not stupid,i can tell
from even ur slightest action or movement u do..even if its jus ur eyes,it shows it..
I realli lost trust in this world..Life is clearly meaningless but for mi parents,family &
relatives..i live on & try to be as happy as i can in front of them but wads in the darkness?
in mi heart? Wads the real truth? Which is the real mi? I realli dunno,I'm realli confused..
Mi mind is in a mess..a cloud surrounds mi & i may 4eva be in this darkness,all alone?
Who is the one tat can shine light..even the slightest,tiniest light into mi life? I noe no
one evers cares to come here & read if u tink wadeva stupid things like i'm jus attracting attention
or wadeva shit..shutup & jus dun say anything cause u dunno anything at all so keep ur comments
to urself..jus get lost away from the darkness,go back to ur own world & stay there..NVR EVER COME BACK!!!!
Tats all i wanna say..wanna express alittle of mi thinking & emotions..
Gd Night to u & Sweet Dreams as well..NiteyNite~
and I miss you already
8:20 AM
