Gone forever!?

Monday, March 30, 2009 Y

Backies..okays,continue on wif the post...
Posting on wad happened recently..not much happened so not much to post..
today,after sch..royston came & find mi physics teacher & he is crappin wif him?
he very the pro sia..dare to call teacher stupid,lol~anyways,talked to him awhile
& laughed alot,he's a very funny & cute guy =) dun anyhow tink hor~anyways,
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Tats it for todays post,skippin lessons again~cause of the project ting..do study
for ur comin mid-year exams guys..jiayous~!
Whit3D3vilz/Bl4ckAng3l depressed..surrounded by darkness & coldness 4eva..
(-(oO)-)~oinkoink~!

and I miss you already

8:19 AM

Thursday, March 26, 2009 Y

Ok,backies..here to update so yea,
Not much happened recently..jus some stuff.I nid to go to the wadever project/
program every week,tuesday & wednesday so going to miss lesson for abt 5 weeks
on tuesday & 7 weeks on wednesday..hope u get wad i mean la.
Recently,I oni feel sad,sad & more sad.1 of the things tat make me feel..well,how
can i say tis..uncomfortable & upset is the rumour thing.BFFs(or some of mayb not)
pls jus stop the rumour thing ok? I realli can't take it liao la..the incident tat happened
wif mi & emokid'452 is u could say over but i noe i have probs myself..probs as in
emotionally like for u guys noe like last year like tat..if u noe the illness ba..so before
i realli start to break down into a more worse condition than i am now pls jus stop
it la..i dun like him..believe it or not is ur choice but stop the rubbish okay?
I oni talk to him more & cause i mention him more often sometimes does not mean i
like him la..if i like tat oni call like then u all is wad? flirters or like alot ppl? no offence
but i'm jus letting u noe ok? u guys the one is cause u all realli like & the BFFs say
also i'm not the one who started it is others..& u like them is truth but mine is
rumour,its not real..i said it before le so pls stop it ok?u dun tink tat u guys nvr say
in front of mi tats means i dunno okays? Others will tell mi de la..its a cycle..
have u guys heard before wad goes ard,comes ard? SO STOP ALL TAT RUBBISH~!!
Emokid'452 tat one is i write abt mi feelin & she misunderstand la & we talked abt
it & yea solved le..but u guys is diff situation hor..I hab a side of mi,the real mi in the
darkness,the mi that does not realli comes out since that mi isnt a side of mi u wan
to see & the real mi who doesn't noe how to communicate vry well & doesn't really
like to be in a crowd..so i jus let u guys noe first & if one day someting abt mi change
dun be surprised okay..i said it before in previous post le so yea dun try & i dun wish
to either..
tats all for now~sayonara..
Whit3D3vilz/Bl4ckAng3l upset..sadness,darkness & dark energy always creepin
ard her..(-(oo)-)'oinkoinks~!

and I miss you already

7:21 AM

Thursday, March 19, 2009 Y

Backies..
I came to post today abt 1 thing oni..that is abt my relative,Eunice.She died
& I am super upset & it now added up to the sadness I have already.As we
r quite close like best frens & sisters so its upseting that she died.Eunice,rest
in peace,we will nvr forget u & we will always rmb u..I really dunno wad
else I should say..I'm jus too upset abt it.The whole thing is a shock to mi &
I jus can't take it..I jus hope now that u can be happy in the other world..
Rest in peace,Eunice..I will always rmb u in my heart..u r always my best
fren & sister..
To my frens,dun worry abt mi..its jus in mi family,I am the closest to her &
its jus a big blow to mi..I also hope everything turns out alright & mi & my
family can be happy again..Dun worry abt mi,I'll be alright soon..I hope anyways..
NiteNite & Sweet Dreams~(-(o0)-)
Whit3Devilz heart breakin apart..sadness all ard mi..I can't do anything~

and I miss you already

10:35 AM

Wednesday, March 18, 2009 Y

Backies..
AVA camp was a blast but its was super tiring..my legs pain sia & i'm really
very tired although i slept yest but still not enuff sia..talk abt the camp first
ba..
At first,report to sch then go foyer..blablabla..skip the in front part la cause
abit boring.After the bag check then we play captains ball..my group the
QiWei & KeJun solo sia..I nvr touch ball de lor but got win la.After that got
check OHP..the QiWei hor..keep on doing nth de sia..nvm~
I skip the morning la cause really not much lor..gt training & stuff la..abit
boring.
At night the best sia.Super fun lor..the oni part i enjoy is the night time.The
treasure hunt nice sia..but i not really all that wet la..most wet is QiWei,the
first person pour mi is the Mr Heng la but he pour QiWei the most one..most
wet de is him liao..first one whole body wet,he still say the water salty then
he use the water cooler wash his face.Mi group nvr wear shoe run ard cause
dun wan kana the ambrush..we also seldom ambrush la..oni some time nia.
The ppl still give us wrong clue somemore sia..lol~we kept running here &
there & keep on trying to run away from the ambursh ppl.The whole thing is
like QiWei lead de since he is mi grp the leader mah..the first part the connet
number one or u can say is puzzle is also he solve de sia..& somemore mi grp
the fastest.
Since its same as last year the thing..the treasure hunt damn fun sia~is 1 of mi
fav..super exciting & fun..I also keep on follow behind QiWei & stay near him,
abit scared la..Mi grp oni Johnson(i tink its his name) kana kipnapped,2 times
same person in mi grp.First time I discovered de then go find him lor..quite fast
find then get water bomb..Second time,super fast find sia..is XiuZhen kipnap him.
She walked diff firection but we headed that direction then QiWei at there say stuff..
She somemore she we not fun de cause so fast find..I still have to help QiWei hold
his slippper sia..cause he say one throw the water bomb at Evon..lol~she soaked lor..
actually QiWei wan headshot but then he say give her face then dun throw head throw
below but still soaked lor..He somemore wan go *************..I dun wan say,
dun sabo him la..but he in the end nvr do~LOL~!!! Junhao say he always like that
de & also say he bo liao..lol(P.S the thing he wan do is not to Evon)
At night..mi,QiWei,LiYan,Stella,Evon,KeJun & Chun Hang nvr slp at all..we
play cards & walk ard the sch..at first wan go watch movie but the seniors
they all watchin R21 de..dun let us watch so we go back play cards lor..then
ltr go walk ard the sch,we still sit on top of the shelter sia..I first time but
the QiWei 4th time liao sia..actually we go sit on top 2 times..the 2nd time
kana caught by Mr Chia nvr get scolded or wad..we still say ghost story &
we also wait for the ghost bus 333..both i scared then hold the QiWei shirt..cause
he say until like very scary..but we nvr saw the bus la..but mayb its true?
dunno & not sure..u wan find out its true mah then go find out urself ba,lol~
We always wan slp le then kana woken up by others..mi is by QiWei..he say go
play cards at the table then in the end stella,evon & liyan slp at there & the
chun hang slpin in class..end up is oni QiWei & Junhao play & I watchin & talkin
to them lor..
After that we super tired cause 2nd day is PT & training the stuff..QiWei & mi
keep on wanting to slp..actually after awhile he okay liao but he like can cast
slpin spell sia somemore very strong de cause at the table there we all began
to feel tired liao & its almost the wake up time sia..QiWei still go morning call..
but we still all slp there includin QiWei..I 2nd day also kept on slpin lor..nvr even
listen to wad senior say de cause i slpin through it lol~when abt to dismiss that
time Soonster & QiWei they all go get back their HP then dismiss liao..took bus
back to interchange wif QiWei,Soonster,Stella & Liyan( got 1 more but dun wan
mention) Stella & the other one alight earlier..left mi,Soonster & QiWei..Liyan
mayb too tired ba didn't talk much..mi & QiWei talk the most de..he keep on sayin
mi sia..then i go hit him,lol~light light oni la..playplay nia,frens mah.Liyan went
diff direction & QiWei took another bus home so left mi & Soonster lor..talk awhile
then we go off liao..Camp was super fun but tirin & I wan to get more slp now so
yea..thats it for now la..already alot info le..NiteNite & Sweetie Dreams
A devil tats feels depressed yet happy at the same time,breakin down too~
(finally a prob solved..i guess so anyways dun tink abt it le..for some of the
previous post,its abt how i feel so u can no nid go mind la..anyways nite =D)

and I miss you already

11:41 AM

Friday, March 13, 2009 Y

I am wonderin..why did you have to do that? Are u so unwilling
to be wif mi/hang out wif mi? If so then say so..dun act act there..
When I tried to talk to u guys..u guys ignore.When I tried to be
nice or jus asked a question,u ignored or make those noises that
represent u annoyed? Then i ask u,why u still hang out? why u at
there actact & diam dun wan say..U hurted mi but i dun care..
Cause I dun nid u ok?I can be alone,I dun nid frens..U can pretend,
say things(bad) behind mi back for all I care..I dun mind ok? Wads
the use? U r not worth mi time at there thinkin,minding abt it..U r jus
an actress,a liar..a big fat liar! U could jus say it to mi face & u dun have
to do tis stupid things or gang up on mi to let mi noe ok?
From now onwards..I'm changing..I had enuff of tis already..who do u
guys tink I'm?When u wan someone help u stuff then come to mi?
Otherwise,u ignore mi..wad am i? ur servant arh? if u wan a servant
then go hire one ok? dun treat mi as a free maid for u..I had it! Since
last year..I already broke down..I am already broken & I noe I dun
come from ur world..I am cursed,havin dark energy all ard mi..If u
really wan treat mi like shit then fine..GET LOST FROM MI LIFE &
GO FIND SOME1 ELSE TO BE UR SLAVE OR MAID..I AM NOT UR
FREE SERVANT THAT U GUYS CAN MAKE USE OF MI WHEN U
NVR DO UR HW OR WADEVER REASON~U GUYS SAY ABT MI BUT
HAVE U TOT ABT MI FEELINGS? DO U TINK TATS REALLY MI IN
FRONT OF U? NO! Its not ok? U dun noe mi & dun assume u do..
From now & out,I am not going to be the girl who kept quiet & let u
bully her or make use of her as ur maid/slave.I am going to be a 'mi'
thats part of mi real character/personality/ the real mi which ever u
prefer to call it..so u guys..the so called ''BFF'' dun be surprised when
u see mi in sch or when ever u see mi kays? I HAD ENUFF & U LISTEN
UP..ONE DAY,U GONNA GET UR RETRIBUTION..& it will come
sooner or ltr so dun tink u can escape as God is there..if u dun believe in
God then wait & see..I'm not gonna mention that person's name(its a her)
as I dun even wan or feel like mentionin that persons name as it makes
mi sick tinkin abt it..
P.S ( If u dun mi then dun assume anything.U dun noe how I feel so jus shut
ur mouth up & stop talkin..U R SUPER ANNOYING AS U TALK NON-STOP
EVEN IN CLASSES..it makes mi so hard to concentrate. Nvr judge a book by
it covers..if u dunno wad it means or wad then go find dictionary..& it also
means u nvr study well cause tis is known by many ppl all ard the world!)
NiteNite & Sweetie Dreams~

and I miss you already

10:17 AM

Back once again~
First,let me say HAPPY B'DAY TO MI~YAY~although its over though..
spent most of the time in sch but still its ok la...oni mayb i didn't have
that much fun.Mr Fok gave mi $5 as b'day present while Mr Woo give
2 kinder joy egg choco..nice~YAY! lol,anyways..ty to u,hehe =)
I skipped the sch part since its not much oni that today CME lesson is
Mr Fok take us as I tink Mdm Jee did not come,I guess...Will miss them
sia~My fav teachers..sadsad sei =( but still wish them luck for the future
& also hope that come back & teach us soon =)
CCA was ok too..did some hands-on..well,actually not mi la but sec 1s lor..
they learned the mixer in quadrangle..talked to eric for awhile while waitin
for the sir to finish..that eric so pervertic lor..he damn pro also de(cnt say la,
dun wan sabo him)...I didn't stay for the Parents Seminar,went home,bathe,
ate dinner & went out buy b'day cake for miself,haha =D
Anyways..thats roughly it for today la..MISS YOU,MR FOK & MR WOO~!
MUS COME BACK HOR~!!!! =(
End here,NiteNite & Sweetie Dreams...

and I miss you already

10:06 AM

Thursday, March 12, 2009 Y

I really wan to ask u guys something..why do u guys have to treat mi
tis way..in lessons,u & the 2 guys gang up on mi..told mi to shut up &
wadever when u guys r the ones that r talkin & laughin away..who do
u tink u r?u guys dun have the rights to do that..u can say it to mi face
that u dislike mi or wadever..u dun have to use tis kind of methods,ok?
U r jus a flirter which to mi,means nth..u mean nth to me at all..i dun nid
u in mi life,k?u always help him when u talk & i tell him to shut up..u always
flirt/talk in class which is so damn annoyin & make mi hard to concentrate..
if u wan to fail ur exams,its ur own business..dun put ppl down wif u by
makin noise ok?
If u dun agree or wadever,i dun care cause i am statin the facts & from now
on u r no longer anyone to mi..i always suspect abt how u feel abt mi & do
u really treat mi as a BFF or jus using mi to get his attention or whoevers
attention if so then get lost..i dun nid frens at all in mi life ok? i can be alone
so it doesn't matter at all to mi..
I am tellin u..u will nvr ever get frens,if u behave tis way..u always spread
rumours or say abt others..wad abt urself?have u ever tink abt it?u pretend
or act to be kind & angelic in front of us but ur heart is black to the core..
u nvr tot abt how i feel? I can nvr trust anyone again & nvr will..true friendship
to mi is jus a legend,a myth..it nvr ever happens to mi..u guys gang up on mi..
ignored mi,say abt mi behind mi back..dun tink i dunno ok? I have my ways
& other ppl will tell mi ok?
I am tellin u 1 last time..i am changin especially to u guys..i dun care anymore..
i'm happy wif being alone..happy wif myself so i dun nid u guys especially
'frens' like u all ok? pls la..stop ur flirt can & stop ur talkin in class its annoyin
la..u wan fail exams but i dun wan to k? u wan retainbut i dun wan so if u
wan talk get lost & go somewhere else la..dun ask mi whoi won't say & dun
feel like mentionin that person name & if u happen to read it,pls bear tis in
mind..another piece of advice to u..treat others as u wan others to treat u.
From today onwards,i'm changin & if anyone wan to noe why than i will tell
u to read tis..i am not going to endure it any longer..I had it for ppl like u guys
ok? U tink i very happy in sch arh? the answer is no cause u dun noe mi so
dun act like u do la..put urself in my shoes & see whether u like it or not..tink
before u speak la ok?
Devilz sinkin deeper into the bottomless pit & can nvr get out...
also nth much happen today so yea..not posting it here..but to that 'fren' pls
tink abt wad i type here..i jus tryin to help u once more time & thats it..if
u treat tis as shit then heres something for u..wad goes ard,comes ard..one
day u will noe how i feel..i can guarantee u that..
end here..(-(oO)-)

and I miss you already

7:34 AM

Wednesday, March 11, 2009 Y

Backies,sry for nt updatin much as I'm so busy & sick at the same time
but here I am to continue alittle bit of wads roughly going on..
Anyways,nth much happened,oni that I am sick for such a long long time..
been missin lessons too as I am well on MC for alot of days..tons of stuff
& test I nid to do & catch up on..
First off,went to comp lab for Nicaragua thing then start the first period
of the day,Lit..didn't do much la so yea..Nxt is History & since I have
been missin lessons..dunno wads going on but then Mr Fok did something
that made everyone hyper..mus change place cause of some ppl 7 sit wif mi
kor lor..After that is PE..played captains ball,super tired de,though I am
sick & dun feel like playin I had fun =) for once in so long..Recess,eat lor..
makanmakan =D yum~!!! Nxt chem,went to chem lab..did experiment,fun ba..
i think..anyways the experiment some is cool sia..Nxt is maths & MT but jus
skip la...
CCA,didn't do much la,edit stuff lor..nvr eat also,hungry lei..=( then after that,
blablabla lor...I didn't show any improvement..I guess its jus too late..
I wonder something..wad do i mean to u guys?I hang out wif u but wad i see is
being ignored & u guys getting frustrated at/dun wan talk to me?do u care?I dun
tink so..i am driftin & sinkin but no one will noe..nvr ever..i tink lets jus end it all..
i'm tired of tryin to get u guys to notice me..no matter how hard i try or how
much effort i put,its no use..no one will even notice..I guess my life is destined to
be alone till mayb someday if the curse wears off,I am cursed & u better stay aways,
i rather u guys stay aways then act/put on a angelic face n pretend in front of mi..
i'm sick & tired,i had enuff..whenever i try to believe in true frenship or trust someone..
something will happen & its always get worse..mayb its cause i'm filled with
dark energy & is destined to be alone 4eva..anyways,i dun care..I'm happier
when i am alone anyways..so i dun care at all..if u dun wan to get affected by the
dark energy & curse i have on me then get lost,i dun nid some1 who pretends in
front of mi face & runs off when somethings happens~so jus get lost~
If ur eyes r spoiled & cannot read,i dun care,okays?
SweetDevilz,where darkness is part of me,where no
light is ard mi,a devilz with dark energy & cursed life..

and I miss you already

7:49 AM